I got help for editing with only two stories: The cat name sam and The body made of gold. There may still be typos in The cat named Sam, but The body made of gold is pretty good as printed. There are at least three other versions. I guess what you get from me is inTENsivE non stop constant writing for over 10 years. very very productive but nothing is quite perfect though many books please me enough and totally. It is worth noting that I have not used spell check for a good 7 years, since I only use pages, the mac word processing free program, by now which has no spell check that i know of. And I never went too close to AI whatsoever. My work is pure genuine humaness. Old style, but quickly done in 15 years. with loads of crazy hardwork at first to learn to write poetry mostly and a few short stories way back.

In turth, the only reason I want to know postumous success is because i want to see what will be done based on all my many many kids and adults teens books.

When I am reborn and it is time to learn about my life as lilou again. Of course, there is zero proof but the depth i know of my mental experiences to explain why I believe so much in reincarnation.

* I dont mind converting anyone but  truly, you are your own guru. read on tibetan and japanese buddhism. Korean buddhism. The. logic of reincarnation is full of hope for our PROGRESSIVE awakening along eternity.  And for our understanding and acceptance of the unbearable pains we must go through here and there, forever too, until we transcend samsara. How boring eternal blisswould be after my shortish life so unhealthy of anouk. I dont deserve to leave earth forever just now, everyone. And go rot in heaven with people feeding me grapes.And hanging out forever with ONlY the people I met in this lifetime. The universe is so big: it takes eternity to experience it. And heaven is certainly not a terrestrial fact. I have been totally blissed out when very much unhappy with hubby. It was not, in retrospect, my most favourite state- I was totally traumatized by everything and less meds too. But I was COMPLETELY blissful for 10 days straight and night. I had found god by then, by having committed to crazy but very generous with wealth hubby as an educated man ,  because that was my simple kamma. Notice, I am way more reasonable now than ever. Dont be afraid of suffering when you trust the love so much. Meeting hubby at 19-20 years old was a revelation about a whole world I could only hope to learn about- his family are all saints. Except his mother who could pass as a beatiful old lady in the end , as she suffered sickly so long and nasty on all fronts and boringly. She lived to 90. Merit makes of us legends.