Since The flowers floating in your bloodstream probably wont get picked up by  Brick Books, I am contemplating how I could print it in 2022. The price of printing has gone up a lot this year. Fundraising doesn't work anymore when I do it. I guess my acquaintances and family are tired of giving me money. I don't blame them!

I might start putting money aside to get a glued version of The flowers binded once I get a rejection from Brick Books. I don't know why I even bother submitting. My excellent poetry work in French in 2020 was flatly rejected by every press. Same with my excellent science fiction and children lit. The flowers is not excellent. But it is my work and my project to print them. I am very impatient and don't feel like waiting for a rejection to get them printed. Society depresses me. There truly is no place for me in it. Nor for my heart and soul (my work). Sigh. 

The shop is not getting as much attention as it was in 2020. You realize I had over 15K visits to my shop in 2020 but sold only 300$ worth of books that year? People don't care about books and even less so about poetry and children lit. 

I am a bit down today. Goose Lane has not emailed me a response about my book (Autobiography of a Holiday) but they won't take it. My work in French and my fiction is better than my poetry in English. And even those get rejected.  L'Oie qui siffle en verra is so sweet and original and so is Maman. Yet not one quebec press emailed me comments about them. Not even comments!!!!!!!! I don't like Canada much in terms of culture.

UPDATE

I WON'T BOTHER SUBMITTING TO BRICK BOOKS. THAT WAY, I CAN PRINT THE BOOK ALREADY.