I am melancholic today. I am trying to shake it off a bit. I am so sad at my awkwardness in social skills. Its a pain for everyone. For me too especially too. I have really lost all my social manners since 2016. I changed that year. Then I started not caring about what I told other people. Its been a few very horrible years socially until 2020. I was pure crazy wisdom but truly mad as a hatter in emails.