I thanked God for nature again today under the drips of rain in Mundy. We are so very privileged. I fear karma will hit me hard after all the bad crazy things I have said about EVERYONE. Even my loved most cherished people. It was a streak of hatred deep in me, broken as I had been again in my thirties by cops and doctors. I had never told anyone about what happened at St Joseph. It was too much ongoing traumas the whole time I was there. Everyone was so crazy there that one shat in the middle of the hallway while they had security guards with him 24-7. It was nust how they treated us.