I think I apologized to Miriam at the gas station for not staying to buy the smokes after too long a wait. as I stepped out of the shop without buying anything (I was about to drop 40$ at their shop). I did not swear or got angry or anything: just exapserated at how long the lottery tickets and chit chat of this idiot customer  were taking. It is wild to be this impatient. i know. i have a problem.