I really really have wild moments and some are straight up crazy. This is me, this blog, being artistic , philosophical and also crazy other times. It is very humbling to be rereading it.  November was not a good month. When Brian left either, a week before, in october. The blog was actually quite bad in that duration. The worst I have seen it for a long time. Not even well written. I am not sure what happened except that brian was away and then it took 3 weeks to readjust when he came back.