The tiny third of a half sleeping pill (it broke weird) is not really putting me to bed. So i am drinking some st germain to help tuck me to bed. I am so ill, it is distressing me though I am happy overall. When I get stoned and enjoy these delusions, I forget that they are just that: weird ideas, delusions. Nothing truly to get sad or happy about. 

The reincarnations stories, though totally out of nowhere but 'impressions' and wanting a female dalai lama next are not what distresses me so much. They are just weird visions, probably innacurate. It is all that other stuff about multiple  realities and losing hubby at home to a monster that disturb me.