Right now, with Billy splayed out on his back next to me, I am starting to feel at home and comfortable. Even though hubby is away. The cat spends a lot of time with me tonight. She seemed to have enjoyed the soft pop music I was playing. I have just put on tibetan new age music from youtube. I have about two hours of this if I like it. I am already out of cigarettes but like yesterday , I wont go buy a third pack. There are limits to how crazy I want to get with cigarettes! So i will smoke cigarettes butts from the ashtray for the remaining 5 hours of my evening. 

UPDATE

I am spoiled, the cat just jumped on the sofa's armrest next to billy on the couch and me. The tibetan healing sounds are playing (so called on youtube) and it feels lovely right now.