I have to make sure I smoke no more than 2 packs a day, even on long 20 hours days. I am such an addict and I blame chemical bonding with the meds and cigarettes in my brain. 

Whiskey woke me up twice to go poop outside last night. In the end, I just left the back door open. I slept about 8 hours last night. I feel a bit alone with this blog. IT is too crazy to be fun. The imagination is ok but mixed in with my pointing the fingers at everyone and everything is boring.And saying I will be famous in 200 years is garbage. I have a bit of talent but no help so it will go nowhere except in this lifetime, with the few people who read me