It has been said that BJG is less selfish than me. That is something written on this blog.  I love to believe it. I guess selfishness is something to do with education. I was certainly raised to be selfish to the max, but I was always aware of this trait in me. The free generosity of Brian from day one really impressed me. I was I believe the ONLY one who doubted his love ALL MY LIFE. I think people were right in many ways: he was mad in love with me.