The evening is lovely. The tree has been set up, it is thawing right now. I feel a kind of void in my skull. On my forehead, a VACANT feeling. Usually, I can focus out of this state, unusual as it is. But not much these last few hours. As I said, I think it is a letting go I have yet to cross. But what if I only get bad eps and look difformed for years on end and crazy? sigh...hard to let go, R.