I woke up at 4:30am. I was asleep before 9pm last night. A great tiredness overtakes me. My email to my Godmother about my supposedly end of life coming around the corner (it is not)....How embarrassing.  I sent an apologizing email a week ago but no reply. I may have finally burned a few bridges. My parents are doing the same: no replies. It is all my fault, I don't deny it.

Today I am seeing my GP who was also alarmed at some weird stoner email I sent him. I have an internet disease. And a cannabis use disorder apparently. Sigh. I have to be more careful in how I indulge my fantasies. I should keep it to a notebook truly.