But right now I really dont feel it. My feet hurt anyway. And it is so darn cold. Humid. Django reinhart was a favorite of mine when I learned about him. Many people in Toronto at the shambhala centre on Bloor kept his memory alive. They are my good friends, those who played Django Reinhart. The lead was no fool i thought. It is a bit tiring to read only good news isn't it, Thomas? But no one goes to hell!

I am 45 years old in some time, though I will be recorded as 47 years old at the hospital. I am so sick of this Lilou life...it was more pain than it was worth ....I really hope I have more fun longer in my muslim life. Right now, every little single second is duty and it sucks. I cant go outside, i am not strong enough it seems. The muslim life is cooler for everyone and me thanks to living awakened sane all along...I hated this life long sick mind. I am told though completely mad with fear as  wolf, it is way mor efun than this life time. I see kalsang every which way in the wild life around me and we finally meet in our consciousness where I realize he has been the father ghost of billy all along. A wolf I never saw again except as a ghost I recognized as such. It is a truly better life from now on, people. In terms of end of life I mean. The rest, remember, is eternally recorded by God.