It was a bit of a harder walk than usual because we were bush crashing for some of it, looking for the second trail which we found easily. BJG is in a superb grateful happy mood and thanked me for this morning. I had breakfast with him too. i am dissatisfied with myslef today. I am too anti social because I know how ugly I have become in my older years. Silly? I dont know: my teeth are so bad I dont want to smile genuinely anymore with strangers. iI avoid them.  I cant afford a good haircut anymore and so i am back to terrible hairdo. I have no proper clothes clean that fit anymore since I have gained so much weight. I feel all that terrible negativity about my apperance and my subsequent manners with strangers. I have to come to peace with my teeth and bad clothing style nowadays. If epople judge me on that, they are foolish. But they can certainly judge me by my attitude. Which is not great, a bit hostile. May Buddha inspire me acceptance, tolerance and gentle kindness.