Oh boy, I have only been up for 1.5 hour. How weird! I should not have taken that quarter sleeping pill last night. I slept too much!

I have no plans today saved for meditating maybe with Wangyal or with Thubten Chodron again and walking the dogs. I have tried to apologize and reconnect with the head nun but she wont have any of it. I was so ill for so long out here! I lost two teenage and childhood years friends. Mental illness is also very tough on people who love us. But I am okay now. And still have a few friends. Weirdly enough, all male.