Sigh. Yesterday was especially good since though I stayed in, I smoked quite less than usual. The last three days had been good but today is bad. 

Billy is asleep on the floor in the living room, next to my couch where I am sitting. I have a view of the sky above the neighbours small houses. It is very grey and sobering. There is a constant roar in the hood, very often. When i was quite ill, from 2016-2020, off and on, this roaring really really tensed me up psychically. Now I just find it tiring.