With the prospect very real of losing Billy to cigarettes in the next couple of years, ( I am hoping he makes 6 years old), I really want to die soon. This is so tiring hubby's constant hostility when discussing ANYTHING other than the dogs and cat. I am very tired of seeing hubby so sick and not getting the therapy he needs. I cant save him if he does not listen when we speak. I cant support him if he insults me all the time. So what's the point of living another 20 years here? i am too tired for that tonight.