This Lilou life is the only really sad life I ever had in the end. 

There will be other sad lives for me of course, notably as a muslim prophet where I will lose my son and my wife to death. This will be, this muslim prophet life, my first EVER long life. There will be no more mental illness ever associated with me for eternity. But turly, it is ONLY because I am woman many lives that men are obsessed with finding mental illness explanations for my complete freedom of mind since this Lilou life. And before.