I was rereading ym emails and I sent some pretty crazy emails to my sister in law. maybe I dont love my hubby enough like I should? he is wonderful, just not in good shape. I worry about him but I should have gone with him to walk the dogs and do the errands. He needs help and he needs me more than I support him truly. I feel weak. And a bit scared of his temper. being alone appealed much more to em than going to do errands with him and the dogs. I am spoiled and apart from cooking , laundry and cleaning I do nothing for the house and us.