Another day that flew by where I just had time to go for three walks, and at the cafe with hubby and billy. It is already august, mid summer already. Going into autumn soon. The day was rather hot for a while. It cooled off by now. It is 19H00. Tibetan healing sound is playing on the cd player. A guided chanting meditation of Bon syllables, a tradition predating tibetan buddhism in tibet.

It is very sad if my Godmother passes soon. She has always been an exquisite godmother. Her energy is fantasy, sparkles and giggles and world folk fairy tales. She has always been skilled with her crafty hands, knitting but also wrapping everything is such delightful ways, impeccable. She is meticulous. She was raised at school with my mother by the nuns. She has three kids and 4 grandchildren i think. She still lives in the eastern townships with her husband. But she is resting in hospital these days. I pray all goes well and she is relieved of her sufferings and tiredness and weakness. May she go back home but if she must let go, may it be a happy thing for her at least. Her kids and husband relay each other all day long to be with her. She is very lucky for that. She is far from being left alone to her own misery. May she feel better soon  and I do want to shed tears tonight for her, since it looks like she may die soon. apart from my mom inlaw, my last mounring was when I was 19. My grandparents. It is so sad to say goodbye and I miss her already. We connected through email since last year I think or the year before. We corresponded for a while until her health deteriorated. I am glad I got a chance to speak with her as well last october when I called her. I called about twice in the last year. It si such an era of my childhood, the cool side of my chidlhood, that disappears into nothingness and far away memories with my godmother maybe passing soon. I am sad and nostalgic a bit, i miss her energy in my life. we spent every Noel with her family while I was growing up. It is everything Christmas and christian this God mother family. Thank you god for giving me such a lovely godmother to pray for. may she be relieved from her suffering and may she be liberated from samsara.  hallelujah!