I wish I still had my mala. I lost it in hospital in 2021 I think. I could pray and chant mantras for an hour if I had a mala. It would calm me down. I feel so nervous. I may put on a guided meditation cd but thubten chodron this time. I have it but have not listened to it for at least 5 years. Lets find it...

UPDATE

I found the book by thubten chodron but the cd is missing. Sigh, I really am messy. I could buy it again for 22$ but I dont want to spend money. I really now have a bit of a phobia of buying online after my splurge crazy style in march 2023.

Everyone is gone to the park. It will be super busy at this time. I would have gone at 6-7 but not 5pm. I like to avoid the crowds. It is okay, my presence or not did not bother hubby and the music at home is good.