Oh my heart, how good it feels to not have said anything outrageously weird to anyone in over two weeks. I am so relieved. maybe this is the beginning of a healthier lifetsyle? I certainly feel it tonight and these days. 

I should go to bed soon. My day has been long. 18.5 hours. But i smoked almost 50 cigarettes. That is an abborhent number. I should slow down and have a glass of water instead. Anyway, I am tired now. i may go upstairs simply.