It must be because of the pot I just smoked. I am also out of cigarettes. The builder is coming at noon in the end. Great stuff!

I spoke to my dad and he loves me so nowadays it is marvelous. He really enjoys talking with me on the phone daily for 10 minutes. Sometimes just 5. He would love for me to visit but mom does not want to see me. Strange, eh? I was always alienated from mom from as long as I can remember. I felt a lot of hatred coming from her, growing up. It was very difficult with her, or between her and me. We fought all the time. And I was very rude eventually. Anyway, dad still is way easier to feel loved by and to hang out with joy with. Mom in fact can be very thoughtful and nice too now. So all is well with my parents nowadays.