I dont belive it of course, but it makes me feel a bit better to write this and say it. Maybe this is a secret strictly for nuns, ama la. For every shakyamuni, there was a mother before more enlightned than him. Shakyamuni in fact was a girld and I met her. Male buddhas are real gold dust.  It is easier to make waves as a buddha as a male everywhere. But when we hear of them, it was NEVER their first awakening. Tadam! Now I smile again, amal la.