Now it is cloudy. 

though I feel supported by the mere fact of rereading my entries, God knows I have no idea if any of it is read.

Pity, people, I am contemplating it.

Turly, everyone with a bit of heart tries their best always. we must forgive each other's shortcomings. And reciporcal hurt inflicted on each other amongst oursleves. it sucks that some people have the power to break you, though, pam. This is the grudge I personally held against god all my youth. i was very upset at knowing how broken I was from early on. That such idiots could make so much damage on my mind was a source of great despair. I felt totally at the mercy of karmic life. and I rebel because of it.