I feel very mature this morning. It is a feeling hard to describe with any other word. Traffic has started and it is now quite noisy. Rush hour started on Austin avenue. Today is Thursday. I should really volunteer somewhere. I tried Colony Farms regional park but no one got back to me. 

Despite the loud car traffic of rush hour, the birds, God loves them and so do we, sing. It is a nice morning of complete freedom. I think i have become materialistic with the decades. I believe freedom is found in material comforts and basic needs met. That it is a big help in freedom to have those needs covered. And by material comforts, I also mean safety and love included. These three are essential. Peace too is a big bonus. Kind of a requisite according to me. I have all this here, this morning. And have had it for a good 2 years, rather sanely overall, and 15 years before that. It is wonderful though it is because of nothing I did personnally except work on myslef but not provide for anyone due to my health, including myself. 

I look at videos of indian nunneries and I wish I was healthy enough to go live there agian for another 2-3 months. There is no way i could undertake such a journey again by now. My health is too crappy and my meds are inconvenient for traveling.