Wow, what a trip. I was sure I was going to be killed tomorrow. No such thing thankfully. I am totally irrational in my aversion to seeing my GP. He is nice. And I need him. I undesrtand why hubby lost it a bit this morning when I hesitated to see my GP tomorrow and wanted to self inject at home instead: it was very bad what we went through in 2021 because of my mental health. So we shall follow insturctions from now on. 

I slept well and deep but was a bit tired when I woke up at 10:30am. I went to bed around 2 or 3. I have to quiet down my terror of cops. And adjust to a better view of my GP and mental health. I need a GP to get my shots. Simple as that.

All will go well. I am safe and sanish now, sane enough that I have to rationalise everything. I so miss having close friends in BC. But I have everything else. I am so blessed to have BJG. He truly is a saint man by now despite his temper. rather wise and nice to live with. I love him deeply.