The last week, after the ptsd scare of cops because of my meds, I am okay and my mental health seems rather good. I am keen to see my GP soon again but it is not for another 3 weeks. His clinic is so very nice now thought the waiting room is tiny and crammed. Lots of windows in the new clinic. 

I have smoked about 12 cigarettes in 5 hours this afternoon. It is not great. I smoked about 18 in 9.5 hours, since 7H30am this morning. Next cigarette: at 6pm, in 1.5 hour. 

Coffee is being made as if on a manufacture line: nonstop. i drink decaf though at this time. Both dogs are sound asleep. Today is a wonderful day, it started so well. And I take way more walks nowadays. Especially that today is downright cool and not hot. We are waiting for some rain, much overdue. The forest fires are the worst ever up north. 

I am thinking of trying to quit completely cigarettes for the duration of a 6 days retreat in Knutsford near Kamloops. It is a buddhist retreat and no internet is allowed for the whole stay.