Wonderful prayers and state of mind in bed before getting up. But real heavvy nutty head since I have been up. I think i am paralyzed with nutty fears, deep dwon in ym bones. Nothing rational. My head is super heavy and I feel super stone though I have not truly smoken more than one joint in three days. I am not in control of my head oddly enough. 

Both dogs are in top shape. I still shit, but not my robe this morning. I am trying to remain optmisitic. It is hard when you have a head like I do. Very very stone indeed. But without any marijuana nor booze so I dont know how it is possible to feel so nutty this morning.