I am smoking cigarettes like a chimney. I dont know why I need it , do it, so much tonight. My nerves must be frail from the last day.

I have smoked two small dubbie since getting up at 6H30am this morning. When I write that down, I think 'Wow, thats a lot of weed a day!'. But in my reality, I dont think so. A sober day is a very different kind of day for ease. Meditation is better on those days. I should aim for it soon. i have a whole week sober next week, in Montreal. I hope I dont turn to drinking at mom and dad's home. They would really dislike seeing me drink 3 beers a night. I rarely do it here but I have had weed since 2006.