The feeling of weed is tremendous though for feeling mystical. Though I always had an interest in mysticism way before I started smoking weed at 30. Tonight it is late and I should be sleeping if I dont want to forsake the dog on their early morning walk tomorrow. 

I turly think i may be quite physically handicapped before I die. Hypochondria? Anyway, there is absolutely no way of knowing. I just fear I am too spoiled in the last 2 years while hubby is facing a TON of tough challenges continuously.