but it is always good to be alive and pray and recite mantras and walk the dogs and be alive and thriving. the crows are heard. I am probably ultra arrogant with sanctity maybe by seeing it in myself, but I feel very good when I do. I see it everywhere, in everyone else too of course.  I am very happy here these days. I spent too much though: about 400$ in two weeks. My cigarettes and pot was already bought for that period. So thats just food, starbucks coffees and booze.  It is a bit extravagant I think. but occasional coffees out really help my quality of life, my mental health, seeing people at the cafe etc.