I just put on this cd, the most soothing of them all. With my new cd by Nawang Khechog. Billy is drinking a lot and I am making coffee, decaf. Without booze I dont know how I will fall asleep. I may have to take a sleeping pill tonight. I am very nervous today and prayed very little but recited 108 mantra of perfection. Om muni muni mahamuni soha With deva premal's help on the cd of mantras and music.