I woke up around 8H30am.  Very uncomfortably and very slowly. We have no plans today but figure out some of hubby's paperwork in case of his death for me to not be on the street financially. Nothing new this morning, I have been up for almost an hour only. Still in my pj and thick sweater of BJG. No music, nor radio. The radio station program yesterday was FABULOUS. I am trying to take the absence of everyone from my email box with philosophy and neutrality, equanimity. And the general coolness of everyone towards me this week end. It is okay. I am mad and people find that unpleasant at times because of what I write to them. An ambulance siren is being herd on austin avenue right now. Time to come back to myself in BC with my family life here , in this yellow yoke of a house so cute.