I am not used to such long bouts of depressed feelings (4 days, since hubby's fall). The constant dark weather does not really help though the forests are thirsty from the summer. No one is answering my messages these days and my parents are faraway distant a bit. They dont call these days. I am a bit depressed but it may, on top of it, be all those pints of cider (usually 2) a night I have been having in the last week. 

BJG is in a mood a bit but all is well. Choegyal is screaming his song right now, though not unpleasant to hear. Nothing new tonight. i should reread my book in english of my travel tales and check the spelling and grammar and sentence structure. I am so down, I cannot believe it: it must have been years since I felt that down for such small reasons. Though hubby's fall IS bad and if I go by how often he tells it to me, it hurts all the time.

The monks are chanting. I feel so dicsonnected from everyone I have alienated with my recent (october first half) weirdness online.