The mantra for perfection (buddha) is being chanted 108 times on deva premal's album, deligtful as it is.

Tomorrow I will get the two Noel cds I have bought: one from quebec singer and one from cambridge, england choirs.

It will be great to hear new Christmas music. I have picked the french Noel album to get closer to mother who loves that album and has had it ever since it was put out , decades ago. 

I wish my parents could visit next year. They are thinking of it but they are old. Maybe in the early summer. That would be fabulous! i am too fucked up to go back to quebec: it is too emotional, too long ago and I cannot cope. Too strong an emotion associated with this nostalgia.