The evening has been sobering from all that pain in foot and left leg especially at the knee behind and down, top of foot and foot. I am smoking a second joint. My mental health is very excellent in the last month as this blog attests up to just after end of november.
I have all I need. And I even meditated a bit better tonight. I have to do meditation sitting again like I did this last year. I am getting rusty and entering and maintaining pristine awareness is harder than it used to be for me nowadays. Too much pot and booze and sleeping pills. but this late afternoon I did and it was with gratitude that i spoke to God about my life at that moment. I think so anyway. I certainly must Thank Her and Him for such visions of awareness and steadfastness.
And the fact that I have more than everything I need nowadays and mental health too is fabulous. It is BJG who is being challenged by a lot of ailments and stresses this year and last year and the year before a bit too. May he be protected from having an accident or being blinded while driving at night until he gets surgery in the left eye on January 18th. And may students stop complaining about his attitude and teaching style. May his job remain protected forever for him to keep. And may he learn to cope with stress better and best. He is super stressed out these days. Mostly because of his cataracts and how the job treated him after the student was found guilty of maliciousness against him. They docked his pay anyway! It makes aboslutely no sense. Poor, poor BJG. May he be healthy, safe, happy and polite. Om muni muni mahamuni soha Om muni muni mahamuni soha Om muni muni mahamuni soha Om mani peme hung Om tare tuttare ture svoha Om tare tuttare ture svoha Om mani peme hung Om mani peme hung Om mani peme hung.