It is an overload of cigarettes this morning. I feel nasty because of them. Such is every addiction: we love it but we feel ill at times because of it. I am super thankful people at last hear my message and what I say on this blog. They never ever did ever before. None of my youth friends. Not my family. Only my inlaws have been astute about me since they met me all along. 'She is brilliant' they all thought when they saw me. They truly are the only ones who never doubted me.