How emotional and sress filled it has been truly. I freaked out literally in a panic for 8 hours...I could not wait until hubby was home.

I recited many mantras and listened to a whole cd of them. I went for four walks in mundy and riverview and the hood with dog(s). I cleaned the kicthen and did laundry. But throughout it all, I was super stressed out. I dont recall a day so stressed out forever, at least 5-6years I would say. But maybe less, i cannot recall exactly truly. Nothing new to report tongiht as I smoke a joint and have drunk a whole bottle of cider already. Sigh. No more booze though I truly love it again so much, too much!

I am praying for my sister's health tonight and tomorrow as she prepares for a very uncomfortable colonoscopy. She says the prep for it is dreadful: you have to take two bottles of laxative before hand. Poor sister! May all go well and tests show nothing bad, Om tare tuttare ture svoha

The back door is open and the heat is on...oops.