Yet I am devastated tonight and felt the lack of sleep heavily in my head. And body, Many dizzy spells. I dont know why I need so much sleep to function healthily and spritely. 

I smoke way too many cigarettes. The chances I would have  amassive stroke that would fuck me up for the rest of my life are very hight. Only God can decide this as I cannot stop smoking whatsoever. I plead to his mercy for sparing me strokes that last for years before I kark. 

Mara Tremblay is singing...Quand même bien on y cherche la fin, on attend toujours un peu le train, she sings...