It is good. I heard a couple of tibetan albums today. No prayers except the monks of sherab ling for two pujas.

Or a bit less.

Oh how thrilled I would have been to ever be reborn a female dalai lama in the near future. It would have been much fascinating lifetime I believe. I dont know know whatsoever how I got inpsired to consider it. Mind you, that is something one has very little say in and it is not their first choice necessarily. Others decide who the dalai lama will be.

Right now I am slighlty sad overall about my life and loved ones throughout it all, except hubby and family. But i am oh so at peace and never angry whatsoever anymore. Ever. Stressed out at times, not always logically. But never angry.

I think about death and our mortality, hubby's especially, all the time nowadays. Living without him scares me to no end. May this never happen. I have trouble accepting God would be so very kindly generous on all fronts I ever asked of nowadays and not reserve me a last challenge before i kark. I am scared of that challenge, espeically if hubby is not there with me. 

I feel bubbly. With the urge to share and communicate with a felllow human being or at least a sentient being. But there is no one right now. Hubby is busy and i dont want to bother him. I sometimes talk outloud to the heavens and it feels clear headed and calm and lovely. 

Whisky's gut makes terrible noises and he has refused treats all night.