Yup turly everyone is a bit mad deep down on earth. This is our condition.

And I suspect, the condition of most sentient beings.

I have had the total luxurious free time to really look at my mind in depth and analyse who I am , my emotions, my virtues, my sins.... This deep dysfunction I have to endure from my part is not in vain: by the grace of Buddha Gautauma, I have free time and shelter and food and love. May we all be free to explore our minds once in a while. Truly, that is one fascinating thing throughout each of our lifetimes. 

Later...

I am listening to nuns of chukchikjall and it looks like I am allowed booze tonight. I find it a bit of a burden to depend on cigarettes and drugs so much like pot. They are a shortcut to welfare and well being. I wish all of You could know what I have learned again tonight about not yelling at the incompetent staff at the post office. I have learned, lets try to say it in words, that we are ALL EQUAL. And that certainly, yelling at a stranger for being incompetent is the worst judgemental anger one can display amonst each other. Who the fuck did I think i was to even contemplate yelling at the staff who looked super stressed out already? Truly, this staff is as hot as me on all fronts, meaning, God seems totally there for Her. Like She is for everyone when they are not hateful. To think it was a 'Good thing' and a 'righteous thing' to yell, if I had yelled, that she was incompetent, is very misguided. It was just for myself that I was expressing frustration. That is absolutely never a reason to yell at anyone, let alone perfectly sweet strangers who cant do their jobs yet. Or ever.