I am so sick of being dissociative it looks like online. What a shame and a pain for everyone. It is no doubt pot that mimics those symptoms. Tonight I feel very bad: nausea, vomiting, headache, dizzy spells. I had two pints of cider.

I am too tired and sick to worry anymore about my online presence. Time will fix everything. But I have to stop being so weird and traumatised online. I cant believe I believed we would give Billy to the cops if anything happened to me. No way! He is ours and will always be.