But truy, poverty is tough. I just find it essential to experience for eternity in order to always remember others with less than us. I wanted to be a saviour to everyone in this lifetime. I was arrogant because I was deeply broken myself and needed help instead of helping others first. It is ALWAYS good on your satisfaction with your life when you can feel like you are truly helping others. This was refused to me all along. EVERYWHERE we went, the impression, (it is just my own impression), was that everyone thanked brian and I had helped no one. Until we went to BC and I met again homeless people without being homeless myself nor poor.