but usually, my dear friends, the rewards are huge at the end in terms of giant leap in meditational skills and depth of wisdom forever. I have learned that I will never visit a psych ward ever again like I have in this lifetime. No one will ever force me into one either. This is my eternal achievement. Not bad to tell you the truth. Its worth a nasty lifetime all along with God my friends. But I had mostly some money all the time and , forget not, I had brian.