All is calm, all is peaceful. I have told my God I want to expiate this anger I felt towards my life, my parents, my friends..i.e. God. If I know the war or violence again before I die, it will simply be expiation on my part. We are not perfect and I have deep remorse for ever having felt so angry at God as a child. And I want to expiate this anger, however natural it was, I felt all my life and resentments.