Yup, truly, who is allowed like me to just write all day, walk and get drunk and stone all throughout it all?

Somehow, I find this too lax.

It is simply my fault, no one else is to blame for my laziness.

I have to try to be more austere.

Or at least more disciplined and clean the house or something.

I am so very very easy going and thus lazy nowadays.

All I do is spend money and get intoxicated.

how come I am so weak?