Best thing to do when you are awake at 2am!

I pray my estranged cousin finds her forgiveness to God in her heart about her mother who was very ill all her life and never healed. I thank God for her brother who never denied family and now lives with his aging dad. My mother had two strange features: she was super fragile mentally and her touch was dreadful: made you feel ill right away. But should a child resent her mother for that? truly, not. I resented God a lot about my mother. I wanted everything without developing empathy for her. I was deeply selfish.