I should be in bed. I feel a space in my chest, literally a hole. Tummo is gone.

I have a hole in my chest, quite simply, from having lost TumTum recentely, just yesterday after all, it is still a fresh goodbye.

The ache will reduce and the fear of life without her reassurance too. 

Holly Cole Trio is singing, Smile, though your heart is aching etc she sings. Smile through your fears and sorrows, and maybe through tomorrow, you'll see the sun come shining through...

It is a little strange I so love the singer of my 15 years old to 17 years old, Holly Cole Trio. Have I not changed in 30 years????