Yes, it is a total mystery because my parents are now both nice.  I suspect my mother was too tired from work to really pay attention to me. But that is pretty much all. yet I have asked god as my only thing for my next human life: to have a splendid childhood of love, adoration and sanity. I really really found my childhood hard for my happiness but I turly dont know why since I did not have to work and was very wealthy overall with lots of hobbies and sports and free time. it was ideal truly for a loner child. I had a few friends. The mystery is total but I was TURLY unhappy with ym parents as a child.We are deep down super different I think.